| well, i got a few good quotes from the book i've been reading...
"I believe, i believe, i Believe, because not to believe is to become as lead, to lie prone and rigid, forever inert, to waste away..."
now that one can come off as a religious quoter, but i assure you its not, i don't believe in any god really, i believe in the people around me, my friends, my family, and everyone that allows me to be me and gives me inspiration. I guess im a socialist in theory, but that wouldn't be american if i announced that...i guess webster and his dictionary has it to be a very unamerican thing to say.
ok, thats neither here nor there, so heres another one:
"sleeping is giving in..." thats actually a pretty bad one, but im looking for help on my lack of sleep, even on my days off.
OH and i'm getting rid of this journal, mostly because.....yep, it's on the internet, i feel i'm being a moron doing all this in here, and not in a secluded notebook. I write things that pop in my head, and some of them are pretty radical, it can be unsettling, but its better that people not hear everything i say.
For my sake, and for yours, good day and good bye live journal! | comments: Leave a comment   |
| why do things have to be complicated, i just want to have something work. I hate have to be patient for something that most likely will not work in my favor, i feel like i'm almost wasting my time, but when i see her smile i get sidetracked every time.
So she tells me that shes still stuck on her ex, what do i do? Do i pull a full on retreat and not bother? Or do i pull a full force "I want to be with you"...well, obviously i pulled plan number 2.
But, i'm still lost because i cannot read a girl for the life of me. How do i know what she feels? How do i know what she does when im not around, i feel like she's drastically trying to push me away because she might be doing something wrong behind my back. But then again, thats just superstition. I'm a waste of a good brain.
On another note, i have no fucking idea what i'm going to do for my classes this semester, will i fail every test i take? most likely because i am completely horrible when it comes down to sitting and studying for countless hours of the day.
I need a well deserved break from work and school life, i want to go to some remote area for a weekend, and just fuckin' lay down and deal with julie. I really would like this to work out, I feel like i'm going to be missing out on something very good if i ease up on my will power to make it work.
PROCRASTINATION, the word comes up every fuckin semester, everyone does suffer from it, but everyone then again seems to deal with it fine when it comes down to it.
I should do the following: 1: FUCKIN' STUDY!
2: Shut the fuck up and get my act together and sit down with julie to talk to her about the situation.
3:FUCKIN SKATE!!!!!!!!!!!(no thanks to the rain though.)
hmmmm, too much shit going down on a 7 day week, i need more time. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well, i went to toronto yesterday, and i can safey say it turned out to be pretty lame because sean got free passes to the virgin fest, and i was stuck wandering toronto with vanessa by ourselves.
I honestly felt like an idiot the whole day because i actually went to toronto. Even though i bought things, and theyre pretty cool stuff, i would have definitely not went all together, if i knew it would have turned out like it did.
Now i have God damn work till 10 tonight...
i'm going to be so miserabel at work today its going to be bad, i bet i'll get a few "hey luke, why don't you smile at least." or "your going to be the kid that brings a gun to work and shoots up everyone."
I don't want to deal with my ignorance. I would like to be better at the things i wish | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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| alright, what to say...
school is actually pretty good, i like my classes, and i like the fact that i really don't need much to do for homework.
but my design project gave me a good jumpstart on getting rid of my laziness. it made me a walking zombie yesterday when i tried to function as a human being walking around campus with julie. We both were completely out of it.
She ended up going with me to a students for peace meeting, and now i guess shes thinking about being a person whom gives a shit about others. To her its a big deal, i hope she finds what shes looking for, and i hope it makes her a better person. I really would not like to see her stressed out.
Well, for today, im completely tired...again. so i think im going to finish up my art history class, then i'll head to bed afterward.
But, i do have eagles of death metal tonight, plus i guess julie has off work and everything, so who knows, i might just take her out to dinner, that'd be nice. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | well, i recently acquired a macbook and im pretty pumped about it right now. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well, i feel like a respectable human being now....
boo yah! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well im fallin for my friend julie, i should tell her.
i officially feel like marty mcfly worrying about rejection. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| Dinosaur Jr. was awesome.
The semester is goin' alright, but i don't have as much as i should on my book deferment, and that will definitely kill me in the long run.
I'm also pumped about taking this class called food & people, so i can shut people up when they say i don't eat right.
Plus i have my friend julie form last year in every design class im taking this semester, she fun to be around.
I'm visiting the galleria this weekend, it will be probably the first time i've entered a mall in about 4 months. i'm not happy about going, but i need my ipod fixed up.
Skating is fun too.
Also i hhave a mater plan to make a very visually appealng video part with my friend bill, i'm pumped to get things going.
O and i get a laptop soon, so i dont have to use the library computers anymore. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| when it comes down to it, im a lonely guy lol.
i feel its not even worth writing about half the time. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| school...its time fro you to stress me out!
i gotta stop saying fro and start saying for more often!
fock i need something to worry about. i have nothing to look forward to ever lol | | comments: Leave a comment |
| classes start monday....................
and that means kmart cannot whore me anymore!!!!!!!!
and that means the twins are back from nyc.......
im excited.
the only thing thats not exciting is the lack of milk in my place, which means i cannot have cereal like a normal human being... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well my friend jake tied for first at the brooklyn banks contest!!!!! so psyched for him.
and other than that i just finished the longest day in working history...
i have no life, but im pumped fro jake and im pumped for mark's party on friday and also the fact that school starts soon!
i got nothing else | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| well for my only day off, i hung at the shop and then got my laundry done.
hung with jamie at the fair and then went to my brothers place to see how hes doin'.
now im home wishin i didnt have work tomorrow....lameeeeee.
i need something to look forward to on a day offf other than skating lol.
well i got dinosaur jr comin up, and eagles of death metal, and rancid. action packed.
and ofcourse the twins come back soon.
party on elmwood dude!!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| the downstairs roommate stole what was left of my game....
i am worthless and rude lol.
ughhhhhh
maybe i should just work and skate with my roommate and not communicate with anyone who is outside the city...
fuck dude, honestly. straight out of a soap opera....i feel like the bipolar guido named sonny from general hospital.(dont ask how i know this) | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| i don't know how to be a responsible human being, and i think everyone notices it.
i think thats why i don't have a girlfriend. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| :::::insert lame artsy entry that no one cares to read because its a repeat of what was said two days ago.:::::::
::::::insert how cool your boyfriend/girlfriend is:::::::: | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| i decided to not move, im stayin the semester.
i guess im just stressing out too much over friends, people that stress me out, and possible money problems.
its cool, ill just live. lol | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| i got nothing but a pack of freezie pops and a hand full of friends.
and i guess im content.
il b livin with my brothers again, i miss 'em, every single one of there lazy ass's, and i'll just have to add to the laziness.
school and the twins are comin back soon, get excited. You know i am.
skating leaves a smile on my face, the way it should be.
but i'm still a lonely person. theres always that gap to fill. not even green tea could fill it up. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i cannot wait!!!!!!
august 31 is the final day
back to the same old shit, but doin' it back in L.A.! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| i just put in rancid's 2000 cd, and fell back in love with the band...
it feels so good to wanna just get up and jump around haha | | comments: Leave a comment |
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